Friday, April 3, 2015

Addictions: Food

Addiction: using a substance to change mood, uncontrollably. Or relying on a substance to "feel" good. Using a substance for psychological comfort.

So when you boil it down the reason I needed to have this surgery, in fact the most basic reason that most people need weight loss surgery, is food addiction. I have struggled with this as far back as I can remember. I even struggled with food addiction for years before I began to gain weight and become obese from it.

Growing up I used food to comfort myself because of the trauma I was experiencing on a day to day basis. It was the only way my very young mind was able to cope with being raped on a daily basis by my own father. And I was far to young to understand the damage I was doing to myself by devouring food. All I knew was that it made me feel better. A weakness that I have lapsed back on several times in my life.

In a way food addiction I'd the worst addiction of all. We all require food to survive, therefore making it difficult for us to spot the problem when it is beginning. Other addictions are not things we absolutely need to survive. Food however we can't get away from we must eat to live.

On top of that our modern American society revolves around food. Most advertisements are for food, there are displays with junk food through out stores like Wal-Mart even when they already have a large grocery section like the one in my hometown does. Every corner you turn there are displays with candy, and other junk food.

Now I in no way expect the surgery to cure my addiction to food. However it is an incredible tool that I can use to help me get over my emotional relationship with food. I am basically never hungry now, and even when I am I can't fit very much food at all because of the size of my pouch. That will help with my problems as well as my food aggression. As they are my emotional links to food. There it's a lot of work for me to do myself but I already feel as though I'm making progress on this front.

1 comment:

  1. That's what makes food addiction so tough; It's something you can't quit completely, you still need food to live.